Monday, June 8, 2020

Bad Day, Good Mom

Today was a bad day. The kind of day that started too early after staying up too late. Not a little bit late, where you feel groggy and want a cup of coffee in the morning before fixing the kids breakfast. The kind of too late where you feel run over by a truck and hand out fruit snacks for breakfast because at least they have the word "fruit" on them. 
  Its the kind of day where the tv is on ALL day and you say yes to literally anything they want because at least they're half distracted for a few minutes at a time and you can sit in relative peace. You don't get anything done. You feel like crap all day. And when your husband finally walks in the door, the relief you feel quickly dies because he's about as helpful as one of your kids. He even has the audacity to ask about dinner.
  On days like this, you feel like such a failure. You snap a little more. You sit on the couch a little bit longer when they cry. You know YOU are the reason the day sucks and the kids are whiny and needy and you feel the pressure to get up and be the perfect mom even though you don't have it in you. 
  But on the other hand, you do get up. You sooth bonked heads and snuggle babies who are almost as grumpy as you. Your goals are to keep the kids happy and alive and fed, while you feel like a steaming pile of dog doo. 
  Don't stay up too late tonight. But if you need a few more minutes of precious, uninterrupted YOU time, take it. You are a good mom. Even on a bad day.