Its never enough even when its too much
The smell of your head, hair soft to the touch.
I’ve forgotten the screaming from when you were awake.
I’ve forgotten the chores you made me forsake.
All I see is an angel where my opponent once stood,
The light of my life, all gentle and good.
Did I really sigh in frustration when I heard you cry?
Did I prioritize tasks when you were nearby?
Who was the person who dared put you down
For the sake of the laundry, that stupid old clown?
It couldn’t have been me when I love you so
That I sit right here even when I could go.
To-do lists still waiting; interrupted, half-done
But all I can do is sit and watch my dear one.
Watch you snore in your bed, mouth slightly a-gape
Making no use of the time I have tried to escape.
I want to bottle each moment and save them for later,
When I’m less stressed, but time is a traitor.
It never sits still, much like these children of mine
Who keep on growing and changing with time.
I wouldn’t change it, each stage is a gift,
But wouldn’t it be nice if I wasn’t on shift?
No more working, just games to be played
With these wonderful children, the people I’ve made.
Don’t give up on me when I’ve had a bad day,
I’m sorry. And thank you. Its all I can say.
I love you, Tallulah, Evie and Finn.
You make this a life I’m thrilled to be in.
