Lady in Waiting

I have been on hold for a long time. Practically since high school. I always knew I had no great goals of becoming a doctor or lawyer or teacher or really... Anything at all. So college wasn't really anything but a place to waste my time with "fun" classes. I went for going. I went for the simple pleasure of learning. I'm no closer to a degree than when I started four and a half years ago. But I do feel a little better prepared for the rest of my life. I want to be a wife. I want be a mom. I want to be the center of someone's world. And that seems like the best way to do it and deserve it. It's hard knowing I'm goalless in a world full of people who feel like success if measured in dollars and having a point is based on a career. I have never had those drives. I am so much more content in my day when I've cleaned the house and made a meal and settled an argument, then I was when I got good grades or a "great job" at work. It's just not for me. 

But I sometimes feel wrong for wanting that. For not having more goals or something. 

Now I'm waiting for my husband to come back. I'm waiting for my best friend to have her baby. I'm in a constant state of waiting. 

Sometimes I canmt help but feel like there should be more to my life than other people... Waiting on other people. But it's also what makes me happy, so how could it be wrong??

Top Ten Musical Loves

(In sort of an order of favorites... But not really. Just the last three are in order.)

 10. Mother Mother- Candadian, edgy... Different. They were AMAZING in concert!!! What that woman was able to do with her voice... Simply incredible. My favorite songs are "Hayloft" and "The Stand". 

 9. AWOLnation- This was an off-shoot of an off-shoot of a band that dallied in amage to 70's pop. What they became was a little rougher, a lot more rock... And pretty epic. Sail was a smash-hit. But in concert I loved Burn It Down. 

8. Scouting For Girls- Completely different from the other two, most pf theor songs have clever inuendos... But surprisingly ALL of them make you feel like just by being female, you are quirky and unique and LOVELY. British pop. "She's so Lovely" and "1+1"

7. Mumm-Ra- More indie British pop, with a touch of the dramatics to it. Most famous for "She's Got You High" featured in 500 Days Of Summer. It's a pretty cool band. 

6. Christina Perri- Yes, she may have written a song specifically for Twilight... But it is a samn good song! In fact, I have loved every song I have heard her sing. My favorite is Arms, but Miles helped me through a pretty painful breakup... Woth a guy named Miles. 

5. The Weepies- More indie than the rest, but all their songs are so sweet and have very unique lyrics. They also don't follow the traditional length or set up of songs as often. But Be My Honey and Red Rec Rose are so sweet. I love most of theor love songs. 

4.  Bowling For Soup- I know, I know... Very old school. Hahaha! But once a favorite always a favorite! My favorites are High School Never Ends and Love Sick Stomache Ache. 

4.5. (I thought of another I had to add). San Cisco. This little indie british pop band that I instantly fell in love with. All their songs take a few listenings, but they are all awesome. I love them all. No favorites, just an all around wonderful band!

3. Owl City- All their songs sort of sound the same which makes them easy to listen to, but also awesome and peppy, which makes them FUN to listen to. My two favorites are Fireflies (duh) and Dental Care. 'Cause puns are the best. 

2. He is We- I found this band in high school when they only their acoustic sample out... They completely rock. A guy and a girl and they BRING it. My favorites are: Light A Way, Love Story, All About Us. (My husband and I had our first dance to All About Us feat. Owl City.)

And my number one favorite band of all times is:

1. Queen. There are NO songs by this band that I don't completely love. In fact, if I could choose how I was going to die, I would go back in time as a gay man and marry Freddie Mercury.