Sunday, June 29, 2025

Burn it all down

 I had a dream my childhood home was burned down

I was with my mom and my dad

We could see the flames eating the trees of the canyon, baring down from no man’s land

A house I haven’t lived in since I was 18, taken by the bank

Because my dad didn’t believe in paying bills

He invited the squatters.

They filled my baby brother’s Nemo themed bedroom with grow lights

And Pot Plants

I don't miss it

I don't want to go back.

Fires could pour in from every side and I wouldn't feel a thing.

In the dream, dad is desperate to save it

It's still got value for him.

Even though no one is in it. There is nothing worth saving.

It's just a place we used to live.

Its not memories that he wants to salvage.

There are no treasures left behind.

It's an imagined worth, a possible buyer

Who doesn't exist. 

Who will see the value of what my father poured his efforts into

When he emptied our trust fund

To dig a hole. And build a 10 foot tall, hideous fence.

He saved nothing. He worked on nothing. He invested nothing.

He took everything... and told us it had value.

And if a fire rips it from the earth

The only person who would care

Is him.

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